Saturday, September 15, 2007

cant get to slp as im still thinking about him. simply just cant stop thinking about him.

i keep telling my frens i wanted to forget him, i wanted to give up e one i love. but in my heart, im saying dun give up, dun forget him. wad excatly m i suppose to do?

frens console me, tried to cheer me up especially ling n him. thx alot, i really appreciate it.

i might be strong on e outside, smiling n laughing along with my fren, trying to act like normal, like nth has happened, but inside my heart, im bleeding n crying.

i just cant give up on e one i love. im simply me. unlike others, some may give up on their love n give their love his/her blessing. as for me, i do give my blessing to him. but i didnt wan to give up on him.

he and his gf seem to be loving. some say they dun look like a couple. but now, after seeing one testi frm one of his fren, e fact is, tat gal, who took pic tgt with him, is his gf. im just so sad.

im missing him once again. with him, i felt happy, n didnt even wan to think about all e unpleasant things tat had happened tat day. i miss him. i miss e time when we were sitting tgt, chit chatting, n making fun of each other.

he is so much different frm e other guys i noe. seriously miss him alot. learn alot of things frm him, but y does he has to do tis? he is e onli guy who i shed tears for him so many time.

e love i had for him is tooOoo deep. my fragile heart is being stabbed again n again. e wounds i had needs a very long time to heal.

praying hard tat he will come bck to me,
im naive, stubborn.
i think about someth which would not happened,
didnt wan to follow wad others say.
i wanted so much for him to contact me again.
tis day finally came,
but i said something which i didnt wan to say.
felt so hurt n sad.
since he was nv meant to be mine,
think i should let go?
wad m i doing?
saying tis again when in my heart,
i didnt wan to let go.

he is e guy i ever wanted, nice character although he doesnt really hc e look.but looks doesnt matter. nw since he has already gt a gf, hoping tat she will treat him real good, hope tat he wont get hurt by her.

shall stop writing here.


jun`

4:00 AM