Tuesday, September 11, 2007

be4 i go to sch, it is a morning surprise to me!!

now, from wad i saw, tis show tat my instinct isnt wrong. its much more hurting to see it with my own eyes. i would rather he say it out himself.

im sO sad right now. tis morning after i saw it, i threw again all e th tat i wanted to give him. tear each card with tears flowing down. its so hurting.

tis whole day wasnt really in e mood. kept quiet in class, nv talk to anyone unless they talk to me. looked so much like im suffering frm depression-.-

thought tat i would be able to let go. but nw, i dun think so. i just couldnt stop myself frm thinking about him all day long.

after sch,went to amk n had a short chat with one of my classmate. told her wad happened, and tears started to roll down. i couldnt stop my tears frm rolling down as it was too hurting. it took me sometime to stop crying, but nw, as im writing tis post, i couldnt stop my tears again. y did i fall so deeply in love with him? felt so stupid right now.

althought u gt urself a partner,
im still thinking about u.
how m i supposed to forget everything about u?
its just so difficult,
just like one fish trying to drown itself.
i would rather u tell me tat urself,
at least it wont be so hurting,
den seeing it with my own eyes.
if tis were meant to be an ending,
i will accept it,
and try to continue my life without thinking of u.
as time passes by,
i hope tat my love for u will slowly fade away,
although u are e only one tat i love so deeply.
lastly,
i give u my blessing.


shall log off now before i really break down into tears. hw i wish someone can lend me his/her shoulder now.

jun`

5:05 PM