school started, n o lvl is just a month plus away!!!! so fast. haix
what excatly is love?
love is so confusing!!!
somtime, avoiding is nt e way of solving any problem. Dont know if he is really avoiding me anot. haix
It has been quite some time, and yet i still cant stop thinking about him. maybe if tat day my fren didnt msg him to tell him tat, we wont be like tat bah. haix, dont know wad happened to me now. hw i wish i could receive one of his msg now.
recently, when i heard vibration frm my phone, i would hope and expect it to be him. did i do someth wrong to make him avoid me? why do i have to always encounter tis type of problem? is tis meant to be? or should i say fate? tis is e first time i fall so deeply in someone i like, just miss him so much. tis may sound crazy, but tis is hw i feel nw.
Although we has never been really together, but my feeling for him seem to be so deep. whenever im with him, i can forget about all e unhappy th tat happened tat day. just felt so happy when im with him. no matter im happy or sad, he will always be beside me. i really love those time when he was with me.
BUT wad excatly happened now? can i ever get this memories back to reality? not just memory, but in my life? i doubt so. haix. wad excalty is bothering him right now? why didnt he wan to reply my msg or pick up my call?
i told ling tat maybe he has already got a gf, tats y he didnt wan to contact me anymore. but she just keep saying im thinking too much. if im really thinking too much, den why is he like tat? did tat on purpose or its just e fact?
someone who like me told me to give me "his" frenster, so tat he can hlp me ask why is he like avoiding me. i rejected his offer, and asked him "u noe i like him, and u like me. will u be happy after u help me?" . he said "no". i would rather he dun help me as i had already hurt him so much, so much tat i felt so guilty.
den another person who like me gave up. he gave me his blessing. he told me "i noe i wont get a chance because in ur heart, u onli have "him". i give u my blessing, take care." once again, i hurt another person. i just felt so guilty.
i tried sp hard to stop thinking about him, by keeping myself busy. but i still miss him alot. wad should i do? im missing him more n more each day. but no matter wad i msg him, he choose not to reply. if there is realmy someth bothering him, i would rather he be frank n tell me everyth. im so confused now. tis question is easy to ans, but why does it seem to be so hard to get a ans frm him? hope i can get a reply frm him as soon as possible. haix
